New-Ness

I've never been the sort of person who likes to try new things.. I dont experiment in general. Be it food, a new situation or anything else. Yet I love to learn and to explore. One thing I shy away from often is uncertainity; I'd rather take the back route.. the easy way out of things.

To overcome this, I have often challenged myself willingly with such instances. I've put myself upfront, to do things I'm clueless about. The end results may have not always been positive, I dont always come out on top.. but its been the case most of the time.

I forced myself to go up on stage at debating competitions to kill the fear of public speaking. Yep its FUN now :)

I was put on my very first upside down rollercoster at the age of 10, hated it then.. screamed my heart out. But now I go HIGH even hearing of any nearby amusement parks.. Yes I still scream my heart out :D

I dont experiment with my food. I have had the same lasagna at a particular restaurant for the past 5 years.. cuz I'd rather not risk it. I order one particular flavour at Piza Hut each time. My ice cream experiments dont go beyond Strawberry and Blueberry.

I have walked out of a college after attending just one day there, because it did not feel right. I almost walked out on my MNC internship last year, because they had put me in a different department.

Also, as I write this I am on the verge of walking out of my first job, cuz its not what it seemed initially. No no, I'll force myself to stay.. I'm not sure till how long but I realize the problem lies within me so it can only be controlled by me.

Its a pretty lame piece but my sole purpose for writing it during lunch break at work is just to remind myself of this handicap, that has often made things more dificult for me to handle.

Sigh. I NEED to grow up?