STAND UP.. STAND UP.. FOR THE CHAMPIONS!!

Enough has been said, criticism and praise. I dont want to write much here. This post is just to mark victory, after 17 years of wait.. and the day that goes down in the history of my country.

We needed this, you bet we needed this. Not just for the revival of our faith in the game, but the entire nation needed this. It was that perfectly timed.

And boy oh boy did we celebrate!

I've always been a big believer in unity and faith.. This win just prove my point further. From being cricket write offs, to world champions that what our squad just proved - One aim, one direction.. definately helps reach greater heights.




An old defination I read years ago further adds on. Synergy: when the sum of a whole is greater than parts.

PAKISTAN ZINDAAABAD!!! :D

Sometimes in life all you need is one person.. Coming upto you, at the oddest of times to tell you they care. To tell you they're there for you. To tell you that you matter.

They may not be the closest to your heart. They may not be the most updated of your life.. But maybe just having them around makes things better.

I think Its been long enough. I'd like to smile the silly-i-dont-give-a-crap-goofed-up smile right now. Someone give me a reason please.

New-Ness

I've never been the sort of person who likes to try new things.. I dont experiment in general. Be it food, a new situation or anything else. Yet I love to learn and to explore. One thing I shy away from often is uncertainity; I'd rather take the back route.. the easy way out of things.

To overcome this, I have often challenged myself willingly with such instances. I've put myself upfront, to do things I'm clueless about. The end results may have not always been positive, I dont always come out on top.. but its been the case most of the time.

I forced myself to go up on stage at debating competitions to kill the fear of public speaking. Yep its FUN now :)

I was put on my very first upside down rollercoster at the age of 10, hated it then.. screamed my heart out. But now I go HIGH even hearing of any nearby amusement parks.. Yes I still scream my heart out :D

I dont experiment with my food. I have had the same lasagna at a particular restaurant for the past 5 years.. cuz I'd rather not risk it. I order one particular flavour at Piza Hut each time. My ice cream experiments dont go beyond Strawberry and Blueberry.

I have walked out of a college after attending just one day there, because it did not feel right. I almost walked out on my MNC internship last year, because they had put me in a different department.

Also, as I write this I am on the verge of walking out of my first job, cuz its not what it seemed initially. No no, I'll force myself to stay.. I'm not sure till how long but I realize the problem lies within me so it can only be controlled by me.

Its a pretty lame piece but my sole purpose for writing it during lunch break at work is just to remind myself of this handicap, that has often made things more dificult for me to handle.

Sigh. I NEED to grow up?

Isolation

.. For myself. For everyone else.

Once an enemy, now an acquaintance.. Bitter-sweet it is, the whole experience of being able to spend time alone. Used to be one of my biggest fears, right now I see it converting into a strength.

Its addictive. Its soothing. Its an experience of its own.

The people who once may have left me alone, at any point in time.. I now thank them, for I no longer feel dependent.. No longer fear making a decision myself.

I no longer feel like the same person either.. but I am getting used to being who I now am, and like the new me better.

Although it would be great to have someone around, I now fear that they too may walk away sometime or the other.. Hence, keeping a distance is always safer. Yet I know, there is more in store for me, I am yet to meet people who will change this belief of mine.. and I wait for that day.

I was once unbelievably social.. Always wanting a whole crowd gathered around me, listening to what I am saying.. But now I’ve learnt that people will only listen to what they want you to say.. Once you choose to differ, to stand out and voice your opinion.. The least they’ll do is walk away.

But hey, that ok.. Everyone’s entitled to voice their opinion. But voice their opinion and not anyone elses.

What ticks me off, is those who may agree with what you’re saying, but still choose to stand by the differing opinion.. Just cuz its supported by the majority.

What ticks me off even more, are those who want to influence the decision of others. There are ways of doing it, but playing it dirty never really takes one anywhere. Sooner or later, you are seen for what you are.. And that is what forms people’s opinions about you.

What ticks me off the most, is cutting out someone just cuz you perceive them to be different. You see them as a threat, or you see them powerful enough to stand up against you. Stooping to low levels, I find sickening.

But thats how the world is.. I often say, I wasnt meant to be for this world. Lol, maybe that is true.

I write this today, keeping in mind particular relevant incidents where I stood up.. Alone yes, for a while, but I stood with my head held high. Though it hurt, though it was not expected.. I am glad I did, and I know I am more at peace, cuz I did what was right. And I stood firm.. Because I believed in it. And belief takes one a looong way!

Today, I hold very close, those who matter.
Today I see very clear, those who don’t.
And today I even see plainly, those who never should have.

Its been an eventful journey so far.. Life. I look forward to living the rest of it :)

Oh boy.. I think I’m a Szabby baby for LIFE

TAGGED: Every single person directly or indirectly related to my time at SZABIST (Aug 05-May 09)

What seemed at its inception an endless journey.. is right now sooo close to its end . Its unbelievable a feeling :S But I’m no longer sure right now if it’s actually a good unbelievable..

Major lessons learnt have definitely been outside the classroom! They include:

- most importantly, the art of multitasking (!!!!) – something I now swear by!

- the art of manipulation – essential for survival =p

- the art of procrastination – heck, we deserve a time-out too

- the art of (endless) spontaneous part-aying! - the art of meeting all deadlines – with all the last minute, last second, last millisecond editing

- the survival of the fittest – its sorta like living in a lost-and-found box!

- the difference between playing politics and playing dirty (read filthy) politics

- not expecting anything from anyone, yet try and be there for them anyways – if nothing else, we’ve got The One who really matters watching us right? :)

- the fact that there really are two sides to a coin – Accept the fact that maybe you don’t want to see the other side, and move on..

- self reliance – Lol, you bet it’s a dog-eats-dog world out there, but maybe thats the fun of it!

Seen the highs.. seen the VERY highs.. seen the lows.. seen the absolute lows.. Yet, its been more like home than home itself! Absolutely no regrets whatsoever!

Unbelievable insane times there have been: from the halwa puri-ing and the beach trips.. to being innocent little bachas in Dubaiiii.. to endless Chips times.. to illogical Logic times.. to post-exam bathroom adventures.. to the vacations in the middle of semesters.. to the car accident(s) *shudder*.. to being made to sell chappals at Sunday Bazaar.. to endless endless allll night MSN counseling sessions.. to duniya hai-hota hai-chalta hai Business Ethics days.. to meeting innumerable eternal Pizza Expert loyals :@.. to starting work on a project at 4am, just hours before a deadline.. to dancing to the tunes of a dhol-waala in 90’s auditorium (!!).. to the Salman-Hiba-Sameer naaras.. to witnessing unbelievable hard work, dedication, unity and team spirit - ZABMUN :D

We’ve all been there for each other, and we haven’t been there for each other.. We’ve cross-talked.. We’ve back stabbed.. We’ve bitched.. We’ve gossiped.. We’ve partied our hearts out.. We’ve disowned and ignored.. Yet, we’ve been a family in its oddest sense!

An exception to all the negatives for me has always been ZABMUN – it is by far, one of the bestest-est things to me happen to me at szabby! October 2008 was when I saw hard work paying off.. Under the circumstances, pulling off what Team ZABMUN did had seemed impossible back then.. And with the people we found in ZABMUN, I think now that with spirits like those and with the commitment level my people have.. for them, anything is possible! Truly, there can be no better team than my Team ZABMUN :D

ZABMUN’s success had no ties with people working for marks, it wasn’t done as a favour of sorts.. it was done to prove ZABMUN.. to prove who we are as a society! I end my term at ZABMUN knowing it is in the hands of people who only aim to make it bigger and better :)

These 4 years have been a journey of meeting new people and of discovering and re-discovering old ones! Honestly I think thats ALL I’ve done the past 4 years! Everyone at szabby now seems familiar.. its like over the years, we all begin to appear the same.. Its been great yet absolutely insane how many people there are at teeny meeny szabby..Talk about dil mey jagga hona =p

Its been a constant journey of losing, finding and then losing myself all over again.. I guess it was more like a journey of understanding myself.. Heck, that bit I’m still working on!

Its also been a realization of how the real world actually is.. But right now I’m not even sure why I’m whining about leaving szabby.. I really don’t think I can get too far away from this place you know.. *siiiigh* I guess I really am a szabby-baby for life now! =p

Definately not ending the way I had wanted it to end, but I guess that’s ok.. Its still been the BEST rollercoaster ride I’ve ever been on.. and for the time being I know its now almost time to get off..

Section A, Batch of 2009 (August 1, 2005-May 7, 2009) – R.I.P

Over and out,

0511122

[Note: this was impulsively written over a couple of hours of extreme bouts of nostalgia, fueled by another few hours of surfing endless old photo albums]

[Note again: This note originally went up on my facebook, wont make much sense to any of the other readers :S]

Summing Up 2008

Almost a year later, I make a special appearence in blogworld.. Still as clueless about things as before! 2008 has been a mixed bag.. lotsa travelling (yeayy!), lotsa new experiences: some major confidence boosters, some reality checks and some downright-outta-this-world FUN times! Its been a year of understanding; those around me.. and especcially myself.

Life is going on.. differences, up's and down's, good times, bad times.. Yep, they were all there. Its also been a year of realizing reality fo rwhat it is.. blunt and completely in your face. I think it can be marked as the year when I finally grew up. Didnt end in the best of ways but oh well.. Life definately goes on. No regrets still.

"Challenges are what make life interesting;

overcoming them is what makes life meaningful."

- Joshua J. Marine