Isolation

.. For myself. For everyone else.

Once an enemy, now an acquaintance.. Bitter-sweet it is, the whole experience of being able to spend time alone. Used to be one of my biggest fears, right now I see it converting into a strength.

Its addictive. Its soothing. Its an experience of its own.

The people who once may have left me alone, at any point in time.. I now thank them, for I no longer feel dependent.. No longer fear making a decision myself.

I no longer feel like the same person either.. but I am getting used to being who I now am, and like the new me better.

Although it would be great to have someone around, I now fear that they too may walk away sometime or the other.. Hence, keeping a distance is always safer. Yet I know, there is more in store for me, I am yet to meet people who will change this belief of mine.. and I wait for that day.

I was once unbelievably social.. Always wanting a whole crowd gathered around me, listening to what I am saying.. But now I’ve learnt that people will only listen to what they want you to say.. Once you choose to differ, to stand out and voice your opinion.. The least they’ll do is walk away.

But hey, that ok.. Everyone’s entitled to voice their opinion. But voice their opinion and not anyone elses.

What ticks me off, is those who may agree with what you’re saying, but still choose to stand by the differing opinion.. Just cuz its supported by the majority.

What ticks me off even more, are those who want to influence the decision of others. There are ways of doing it, but playing it dirty never really takes one anywhere. Sooner or later, you are seen for what you are.. And that is what forms people’s opinions about you.

What ticks me off the most, is cutting out someone just cuz you perceive them to be different. You see them as a threat, or you see them powerful enough to stand up against you. Stooping to low levels, I find sickening.

But thats how the world is.. I often say, I wasnt meant to be for this world. Lol, maybe that is true.

I write this today, keeping in mind particular relevant incidents where I stood up.. Alone yes, for a while, but I stood with my head held high. Though it hurt, though it was not expected.. I am glad I did, and I know I am more at peace, cuz I did what was right. And I stood firm.. Because I believed in it. And belief takes one a looong way!

Today, I hold very close, those who matter.
Today I see very clear, those who don’t.
And today I even see plainly, those who never should have.

Its been an eventful journey so far.. Life. I look forward to living the rest of it :)